Attempt before a great wipe out! LOL!
Birthday Celebrations
the boomerang of light
I would really love to be in another place today, like somewhere warm and sunny with the ocean and music and surfing and delicious food and beautiful people..Its cold here im freezing! I spent the weekend celebrating my birthday, which was awesome with my great friends and family, went to some parties and danced insanely.
There’s no sun but no rain either, the sky seems to be hit by a fryingpan, its flat but thick and closed. Where is the fresh air and the ocean breeze warmed by the sun!!! Aarrgg, in this day and age, where AI is so apparent and in order, its amazing how we cant teleport ourselves to a perfect location yet..or render the weather that presents itsself to us. And yet HAARP is doing some manipulating with the earths weather system, havent you heard? Who knows what may be controlling us, and our enviroment..its so hard to see. Sure there are movies and theories and words going around, but which of those are true, and to what degree? You always got to follow your gut feeling in such cases..whilest putting the pieces together. I would love to have a weather manipulating system that would only do good. Created to make man’s journey on Earth more pleasant and happy, instead of HAARP which was created as an invisible way of warfare. Its all about intention. Intention works like a boomerang. So…if I intend to shine my light..the sun will shine back upon me…Yay! *Namaste*
Love
I just had a beautiful experience with a very nice man..guy..boy.
His eyes caught me by surprise, they were so clear and light blue and radiated a sweet mix of joy, curiousity and beauty.
He was funny and acted slightly chaotic but with responsability. Apparently a very talented photographer and music dude. Every time my eye caught his..there was a touch and a flash of light. Quite delightful and delicious.
As time progressed..I didnt fail to notice his body and attention kept gravitating toward me, and after a minute of sitting next to each other on the couch, we were suddenly holding and squeezing our hands, which was very soothing. From holding hands came hugging, came entangling each others bodies like origami perfectly positionned. I was very surprised, but yet it felt completely like the natural thing to do, like other options such as not touching would be unnatural.
The way he gave into this natural impulse and we opened each other, like a flower petal opening the other petals. Sweet relief sweet.. medicine is what it felt like. Later that night we also kissed which was tainted my pureness instead of lust..which was a new kind of experience for me. It was so peaceful somehow..
I truly feel genuine appraciation for the fact that two people who only just met could trust and like eachother so naturally and sweetily to be able to give into the love vibe that their bodies and souls obviously generated toward each other. It is a very warming and soothing experience..and love is certainly a word i would want to use to pinpoint the causality of this event. Love oh love..how I love it!!
Next on OSWD…
-The experience of surfing; surfing my flow! Wooooooooooooooow!!!
-My internet romance crushed by reality..and what I learnt from it.
-Ray Lamontagne runnin’ around my brain..
My Familiar Mystery Man..
My ex keeps reoccurring in my dreams at night..
It wasnt until two months or so ago that he appeared last, but two nights ago.. he was there again.
He is wearing sunglasses so I cannot see his eyes. His hair is short and he wears a t shirt like he always did when we were in a relationship a couple of years ago. He usually appears like that, as the stereotype of himself.
In my dreams I’m always around him, behind him, beside him, diagonally, parallelly, though never facing him directly; he just always seems to slip away like a fish into the sea..or like that slippery soap bar one of the seven dwarfs tries to hold onto in the Snow White movie. His vibration to me is the equivalent to the familiar mystery man…
Let it be known, that although my behaviour and actions at the time of our being together, weren’t always congruent with my feelings, I did love this man. His star sign was Cancer and mine Gemini. Even when we were having an argument or simply were not on speaking terms, it felt like we were together regardless of what was going on. In other words, our sense of belonging was very strong and could break and did break, many obstacles. The Relationship book described our planetary influences together as ’a fairytale combination’. Indeed, in hindsight it was just that..He had the patience of an angel with me, the loyalty of st Bernard. He was funny, strong, independent and endearing.
In my dreams..my familiar mystery man is always just around the corner..busy with other things solving riddles and problems. Sometimes I can see his house, which is like an island floating on a giant waterlily, surrounded by trees and sunshine. The house is made of a half circle wooden structure, and the three windows are open but partially obscured by drapes and curtains that flow back and forth on the wind. I can peek in sometimes and wonder if he has company..his new girlfriend perhaps? One time I saw him with his new girlfriend and although I was slightly jealous, I knew that waiting was the right thing to do. Waiting until he comes back to me..looks at me again, directly, without sunglasses.
That is how I feel in my dreams..seeking contact but like in a parellel universe he seems to never see me. In my universe I feel curious for him but patient and loving towards him..I will just wait till he sees me again. Yet when I think back about the dreams, I usually feel a sense of togetherness and belonging, despite his unawareness of me.
In reality I have had two other relationships that came after the one I had with him. I was the one that caused the break up. I agree my handling wasnt sufficiently careful at the time, but our bond felt secure enough for me to make mistakes. At present..he doesn’t want to see me. He lives in another country so the chance of running in to him is a small possibility. Yet in my dreams I keep doing just that..running behind him, after him, next to him..without him every noticing this. I hope he is happy. And maybe just perhaps like Snow White herself..I too have to wait until the day comes when he comes back to visit me again…and not parse as my prince , but first and fore mostly as my friend.
He would then say, ‘Liv? I thought maybe you want to go for a coffee and cake?’ And Id say; ‘sounds great, in your town, in my town, or on the giant waterlily?’
